The Baby Buddhist began during savasana at a yoga class one Saturday. It started out as a release valve. My husband and I had been trying for a baby and I was taking it really hard every month we weren’t successful. I didn’t know what it would be. I still don’t know what it will be. Over the months, it has become something bigger than just telling the story of trying to conceive. Baby or not, I’m going to have to live with myself forever. I want the people I love to love me back and want to overlap their lives with mine. This could be torture or it could be an opportunity. “Opportunity” would mean stepping out of everything comfortable to really push myself to figure out who I can be to leave this world better in some small way while remaining true to myself.
I grew up in a small town in rural Wisconsin. I was raised to be active in the Lutheran church. While attending a Southern Baptist college in the South I decided church would never be a part of my life again. Achievement became my means of self confidence. School, career, marathons, Ironman…intensity was my middle name. The feeling of accomplishment as I collected another medal or received another recognition was fleeting. As a young and newly single public defender I decided to reevaluate the idea of spirituality, not knowing what I was looking for but hoping whatever it was would stick. I committed to trying out anything that was in line with my values. That journey led me to a Unitarian Universalist congregation, a Shambhala center, a yoga studio, a couple therapists, and an acupuncturist.
I am proud to be an ambitious 30-something taking on the world. Public defender, athlete, wife, doggy mom, Airbnb host, self proclaimed Milwaukee ambassador and chronic f-bomb dropper, aspiring blogger. I am Katie Kegel. This is my trying to figure it out story.